Zoe’s Last Stand

Zoe passed in our arms tonight at 7:15 pm. The full medical breakdown of what happened I may detail in a future post, but it was our decision to let those who were present say goodbye to her and to hold her in our arms together as a family. It was still and quiet and a peaceful passing for her. We were able to share our thoughts and feelings with her before she left.

81 thoughts on “Zoe’s Last Stand

  1. Jen and Jason I am SOOO sorry to hear this. I am so sad with you. I continue to pray for both of you and Juliana!

    Much love!

  2. Mr. and Mrs. Payne:

    I am so sorry to hear this news 🙁 I have been thinking of you and praying for you and for your little ones. Trust in God, because only He knows what is best. I know He will be by your side on every step of the way 🙂



  3. Dear Jen and Jason,

    I’m crying and I’m thinking how Zoe is safe in the mind of Jesus and you will hold her again one day. Our tears and prayers go with you. You have two precious treasures that will never go through the sorrow you feel in your hearts right now–although I imagine in the next life they will want to hear all the story of your feelings and your love for them and your longing to have them now. God be with you.

  4. We have no words that are sufficient. We are so sad for your losses. We long for His second coming where your girls will be perfect & healthy…as designed & you are all reunited. You have so many prayers going your way. Remember the Lord mourns with you & this sin will someday be no more. Love & lots of prayer to you.

    K.C. & Stephanie

  5. May God fill you up with His peace. Looking foreward to the day when Jesus comes and you will hold your precious Eden and Zoe. Shedding tears with you tonight, but words can’t express how sorry we are for your loss.
    Jeff and Monica Peeke

  6. Words seem so inadequate. I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. As always, you remain in my prayers. May God grant you peace and give you strength. –Jerry

  7. May God grant you the peace, love, and comfort needed to get through this time.

  8. I know this is a heart-breaking disappointment. We’re grieving, too. I’m thinking of hymn poetry that has encouraged me through great losses:

    “…Sing it softly through the gloom, when the heart for mercy craves,
    Sing in triumph o’er the tomb, Jesus Saves! Jesus Saves.”

    Hold Thou Thy cross before my closing eyes,
    Shine through the gloom, and point me to the skies,
    Heaven’s morning breaks, and earth’s vain shadows flee,
    In life and death, oh Lord, abide with me.

  9. It is at times like this that our belief in what Jesus has done for us becomes especially dear. I so look forward to seeing you guys be with your precious little ones again. For now, while all I can do is offer prayer, please know that I’m doing so constantly.

  10. Dear Jen and Jason,
    Our hearts are breaking with you at your loss. We long for the day when Jesus returns and you will see your babies again. Angels will bring your precious little ones to your
    welcoming and loving arms on that great resurrection morning. We will keep praying for you and Juliana and the rest of your family.
    Danny and Ophelia

  11. I am so very sorry. Zoe is resting. Jesus will wake her in the morning. She will only know a perfect world with her family. No sorrow, sickness, or death. May God hold you close.

    So Much Love,

  12. Ray Minner has been a good friend to me and many other Southern alumni. Many hearts are heavy today both for you and for him, but we know that God’s love still abounds for you and will bring you comfort now.

  13. I’m so sorry guys. Every day I realize just how ready we all are for Jesus’ return. I’m glad you’ll have Eden and Zoe when He does. I’m praying for your strength, peace and Juliana’s health.
    Much Love

  14. “He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” Rev. 21:4

    No words. Only tears, love, and many, many more prayers.

  15. I’m sitting here crying because I can’t imagine the pain you both have endured in just a short amount of time. Even so, I’m so thankful to know that your both have faith in a God who can sustain us in what may seem like unbearable times. I love you both and can’t wait until the day you can introduce me to Eden and Zoe. Both of you and Juliana remain in my constant prayers.

    Much Love,

  16. I have tears in my eyes as I send up prayers for you two as you make some tough decisions. Remember that God’s plan is the best he never intended for sin, death and suffering to be a part of this world. He’s crying too as He looks down on you. I look forward to seeing you with your family in Heaven.

  17. Dear Jen and Jason – I am just now writing to you but I have been following the condition of your babies since they were born. I am so sorry for your losses and for your grief. And we all stand helplessly by, knowing that our words can bring only minimal comfort, and that it will only be through the passage of time and leaning on God’s strength that you will be able to deal with all this. And you have so many people praying for you and surrounding you with their love. May you be strengthened by the people you love you.

    With love, Gail

  18. Jen and Jason, our hearts are breaking with yours, even though we never got to meet precious little Zoe. She was such a fighter, but she is resting now in God’s arms. Jesus is walking through this dark valley with you, and I can almost see the tears on His cheeks as He holds you close. We are looking forward to that glad morning when the angels will fly down and place your precious babies in your arms. What a joy it will be so see them grow up in heaven. We love you both so much are are praying for you and for little Juliana. With all our love, Uncle Bob and Aunt Shirley

  19. I’m so sorry to hear the news about Zoe. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. Remember, God is Good.

  20. We are so sorry for your incredible losses. We are thinking of you and praying for the Lord to comfort you.

  21. I am so sorry that you are going through this terrible trial. My heart breaks for you. Zoe fought a good fight, but she was just too small. We will continue to pray for you and Juliana. We love you.

  22. Jason & Jen,

    My heart is broken for you two – I pray that God will draw close to you both and comfort you like no one else can. Please know how much we love you. We will continue to keep you all in our prayers especially Juliana.

  23. Oh, my dear Jen and Jay. My love and prayers go to you now. I’m so sorry for yet another loss. May God continue to sustain you and Julianna. I love you all dearly.

  24. Thank you for priceless gifts: The gift of touching your daughters. The gift of being with you to bid them goodbye.

  25. Jen and Jason
    Words are inadequate to express my heart at this moment… I have spent a sleepless prayerful night considering your grief and the many casualties of this senseless “war”

    “Greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world”

    May the God of all Comfort hold you close to Him during this time and may Juliana triumph in every aspect of her life…


  26. Jason,
    I am so sorry. I don’t know what to say or do. Please let me know if I can do anything. I’m thinking of you all. I am very sad.
    I am sorry.

    Susie and Mike

  27. Jen and Jason,
    Words can’t express how deeply sorry I am for your loss. I know that God has his special plan and purpose in everything that happens in our lives. I praise Him for the time that you were able to spend with Zoe. One day we will be with her again. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

    Jessica Medori

  28. I am so sorry for your loss. Both of you and Juliana are constantly in my prayers. In Psalm 30, it says, “Sorrow may linger for a night, but joy comes in the morning.” Come soon, Lord Jesus.

  29. I was so sad to read this update. I know the Lord is coming so soon and you’ll be reunited with Zoe and Eden. I wish it would be right now! We’re praying for you and Juliana. Lots of love.

  30. Jason and Jen,

    As I read your post tears flooded my eyes. I am so sorry for your losses. Please know that you are all in our hearts and prayers. May God continue to comfort you.

  31. “Good-night, sweet prince(ss);
    And flights of angels sing thee to thy rest.”

    –Andy & Jen

  32. Jen & Jason,

    We are so sorry, and although we didn’t get the chance to meet the girls we cry tears of sorrow. We continue to pray for you and Juliana.

  33. I don’t know what to say, I’m so sorry. So very sorry. Your family is in our thoughts and prayers.

  34. Jen & Jason,
    I’m so, so sorry to hear about Zoe. Our prayers are that God will be very close to you as you grieve your profound losses. I know He is crying w/ you and longing for the day when He can restore your sweet girls to you in perfect health, never to part again.
    All our love,
    The Reddens

  35. “There is a sacredness in tears…they speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief, and unspeakable love.” – W. Irving

    With grief and love for you and your family,

  36. Jen & Jason,

    Wish I had some words to make it all better. Crying with you, thinking of you, and praying for you. May the peace of Christ and his soon return give you the comfort that no words can.

  37. Jen and Jason,

    We’re so sorry for your loss. You guys are in our thoughts and prayers.

  38. Mr & Mrs. Payne

    No words can describe what you are going through right now. As you mourn the loss of Zoe, I am praying that God brings you peace and comfort. My sympathy and deepest regrets go out to you at this difficult time. Come soon Lord Jesus.


  39. I can only imagine your pain, and that takes my breath away. You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers.

  40. You poor dear ones. I cannot express our sorrow for you. We uplift you both and little Julianna in prayers. Remember you will see Eden and Zoe again. They are a part of your future and angels will wing them to your arms. Jerry and Kathy

  41. Tears are streaming down my cheeks and my heart aches for your loss of Zoe. I wish I could be there to wrap my arms around you and share this pain with you. Claim God’s promise that He will never give you more than you can bear. He know more about us than we will ever know or even want to know about ourselves. Jason and Jen, lean on Him for comfort, support and wisdom. We continue to pray for you and Julianna.

  42. Oh Jen & Jason,

    We are praying for you continually, and our hearts are breaking for you. May the Lord be your source of strength thru this time of trouble. Julianna remains in daily thoughts and prayers.

    Many hugs,

  43. Dear Jen & Jason,

    Our hearts ache with you. Soooo sorry….tears, many,many prayers, much love. Paul and Celinda

  44. Jen & Jason,

    Words cannot express the anquish Ramona and I felt when we learned of the loss of Zoe. Please know that you are in our thoughts, and we pray and extra outpouring of God’s peace that passes all understanding into your hearts, as our hearts break with yours. Both you and Julianna will continue to be foremost in our daily prayers.

    With love and sorrow,

    Jeff and Ramona

  45. Mr. and Mrs. Payne!

    I’m giving you both huge mental hugs right now. I’m so sorry to hear the news and, of course, my heart goes out to the both of you. You’ve been blessed through this experience. Remember 1 Thessalonians 4:14 – “We believe that Jesus died and rose again and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him.” Although it’s hard now, I’m sure it will be lovely to see Zoe and Eden in Heaven. I’m praying for you guys! Always, always, always.

    Love, Ashley

  46. Jen & Jason,

    We are so sorry to hear about Zoe. Our heart aches for you guys and what you’re going through. Our prayer is for God to give you peace, comfort and strength. We continue to pray for Julianna to have good health and no more complications.

    Tina, Chuck, Cassie & Cullen Nipe

  47. My heart is with you…wow, you guys have been through the ringer the last couple weeks and I pray that God will give you the strength you need to persevere. I pray you were able to get some beautiful and priceless pictures…they will mean lots in the days, months, and years to come. Once again…so sorry…

  48. Mrs Payne,

    I have been praying continually for you and your whole family. I am so sorry to hear of this loss. May God comfort you as you go through each day.


  49. As we sit here reading this all we can do is cry……you are suffering through the most horrible thing any parent can imagine. We think of you constantly…love you guys. We’re so incredibly sorry for your loss.

    Emily and Ben

  50. Oh, my precious dear ones, how I long to hold you and cry with you. No one should ever have to lose a child to death. It is just so unnatural and so very difficult to bear. I long to be with you to comfort and support you through this agonizing period. My heart is breaking with pain, and my eyes are losing all their tears.

    Especially anguishing is the timing, as my hopes for little Zoe Janine are dashed very near the anniversary of my Karen Janeen’s passing. Zoe held a special place in my heart because she carried my Karen’s name.

    I am so glad I know of God’s love for us, and the promise of heaven. It sustains.

    All my love, Mommy

  51. Hey guys. I have been out of the loop a bit but finally logged on to see what the latest was. I have been thinking of what to say…but I know there is really nothing to say that is trully wise or profound. Just know that Wendi and I have you two and Juliana in our hearts and prayers. We love you guys.

  52. My heart is so heavy upon hearing this news. Know that we are continuing to pray for you and your family. I can’t wait for heaven.
    Alyssa and family

  53. There are not words sufficient, but my heart breaks for you in your pain. Zoe fought hard, but Jesus knows what was ahead for her and knew the best for each of you now. Try to rest in His love; His heart is breaking, too.
    Much love to you three,

  54. Jason and Jen,

    We are just now writing to you, but have been closely following the updates of the girls ever since we heard the news. You and your family have been in our prayers constantly. Even Kaitlyn, our 2 year old, prayed (unprompted) last night at the dinner table: “Dear Jesus, please be with the little babies.” We are so unbelievably sorry to read about the latest update. It is unspeakable sorrow that you have had to endure. Our hearts ache for you and your precious Eden and Zoe.

    Words just seem so inadequate, but please know that we are uplifting you in prayer and will continue to do so. Our thoughts are with you and precious Juliana.

    Love you guys,

    Matt and Carla

  55. Our tears mingle with yours. Hugs and prayers for you and and Baby Juliana. We love you guys.

    Cindy and Mark

  56. My prayers are with you and my heart aches with yours. I am so sorry! May God wrap his comforting arms around you all!

  57. Jason and Jen,

    I am moved as I read all the support that is being poured out for you both right now. Please know that we are all praying for you and carrying you in our hearts, minds and though-out our daily lives as your world seems to have fallen down. We are all here to support you in every way possible. I pray that you will together turn to Our Creator for sustenance and strength, for comfort and peace, and I pray that He will breathe them into your lives. Let the prayers of those who love you carry you through the many days ahead. We all love you.

    This link is to “Hold Me Jesus”, a song I turn to when words don’t hold comfort.

    Love and ceaseless Praying

  58. Jason and Jennifer,

    Our prayer is for you to feel God’s very strong arms holding you up as you go forward. May the memories be sweet as we look to a future that is bright. We continue to uplift little Juliana as she continues her progress.

    Love from your GLAA family

  59. Children of the Heavenly Father
    Hymn 101

    Though He giveth or He taketh,
    God His children ne’er forsaketh;
    His the loving purpose solely,
    To preserve them pure and holy.

    Please Lord Jesus quickly come!

    I love you all and am praying for you and crying with you.

    I send you lots of love, hugs and prayers!!!

  60. We hve been praying for the girls and you guys too and I told our “soup and study” group on Wednesday night that you really needed our prayers and gave them a little on the girls stats as I knew them then. Tonight one of the ladies that was there that night asked how the girls were doing and I told her that I hadn’t heard anything from facebook so I would get on your websight tonight and get updated. WOW! what gief I feel for you that you should have to endure all this heartbreak! Our only bright spot in all this is that JESUS IS COMING SOON! Then we will get to know those precious girls of your. Oh what a glorious time that will be when the angels will place your precious babies in your arms never to be removed again:) Our thoughts and prayers are with you all!!
    Love Todd and Beth Adams

  61. We are praying for your family and so sad for your grief. Our hearts are breaking. May God’s presence comfort you through this terrible time.

  62. Redhead and Jason,

    No profound words, but I will pass on the text that has sustained me in time of sorrow.
    Weeping may endure for the night, but joy comes in the morning! Hold on to God’s promises, He will never fail you!

    Love you!

  63. There are really no suitable words . . . so I will borrow a few from the apostle Paul:

    “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.” Romans 8:26

    May God bless and sustain you.


  64. I’m behind on reading your blog. It is amazing of you to share your story with us. I am so sorry for the loss of your 2 little girls. You will one day get to hold your other girls and they will be healthy and strong. You have one that still needs you though to pour all your love into now. I pray the Lord continues to guide you through this valley and that he lets you feel His loving arms around you. Stay strong for you little Juliana. Lots of lover and prayers for you all.

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